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Thanks

Wed, 02 Jul 2008 02:59:49 GMT

I just read the book "I Dared to Call Him Father". It is about a prominent Muslim woman in Pakistan who comes to Christ and discovers what it is like to have Him as Father. One of the main points of the book was obedience. Bilquis, the main character, say Christ act in amazing ways in her life when she was obedient to Him and followed His leading even though she was scared to follow him. There was a part in the book where a poor woman comes to her house and Bilquis provides care for the woman and her children. Later, this woman fails to send a thank you to Bilquis. So, at first, Bilquis is insulted. Then she hears God speak to her "shouldn't the thanks go to Me?" That statement really made me think. I often do things and expect gratification or I get slightly angry if I am not thanked for something. I am learning the art of obedience, that any gift I have, anything that I can use to help people is a gift from God. So, all thanks goes to Him. Thanks, God.

yet another weird dream

Sat, 12 Jan 2008 22:18:59 GMT

Hi!!! I had another weird dream a few nights ago. I dreamed that I was getting ready for a formal dance. I think it might have been the Intervarsity winter formal, but I'm not sure. The funny thing is that I was preparing for the dance in Butte. I was in the house that I was raised in. I haven't lived there for a few years. I had a dress that my friend made for me for my senior year prom. However, in the dream, the top of my dress was missing. I just had the skirt. So, I franticaly looked for a top to wear with the skirt. I put a top on. But, when I looked at the top, I noticed that the top had a logo on it. I started freaking out!!! There was no way I was going to go to the dance with a shirt that had a logo on it. The scene of my dream changed and I was in my neighbor's house. My neighbor and her daughter were in the house. My neighbor died a few years ago from cancer. In my dream she was not sick at all. She seemed very happy and well. Her daughter was the same age and looked the same as I remember seeing her last. She was in her early 30's and had her hair dyed a redish color. I saw her before I went to Missoula. That was a few years after her mom died. In the dream, I was in my neigbor's house. My neighbor's daughter did my hair for the dance. She put several braids in my hair and pulled it back in a pretty, formal dance-like hairstyle. The last thing I remember in my dream was showing my hair to my mom.

Dreams and Guys

Mon, 07 Jan 2008 23:51:30 GMT

I don't dream!! Why am I dreaming?! I don't know. Anyways, I had another really odd dream last night. It was kinda like a bunch of dreams mixed together. It kept changing scenes. First, I dreamt that my dad was getting re-married. I was on campus in one of the dining areas with my friend. I was complaining to him about how I hoped that this "other woman" wasn't going to try to be a mom to me and try to boss me around. Scene 2: I was in my uncle's house (my mom's brother). The house was being sold. My aunt was in the house vacuuming. The house had the characteristics of my uncle's house, but it looked bigger and had plush white carpet. My mom went up to my aunt and told her that we wanted to buy the house. My aunt left/disappeared. Then I was looking around the house trying to decide where I wanted to sleep. The house was like my uncle's house and another unfamiliar place mixed together. I know there were more scenes to that dream, but I can't remember them.

Completely different subject: Sometimes when I'm really bored I like to take fun quizzes that are supposedly supposed to tell me about my life. I don't actually believe the results, but still...it gives me something to do. So, I was taking a test a while ago that told me what kind of guy I would fall for. It said that I would fall for the sensitive guy and the gentleman. They had pictures to demonstrate the different types of guys. I looked at the example of the "gentleman" and I was like "no way!!". Yeah sure, I like what it said about him walking on the outside of the curb and always opening doors for me, but I just the picture just somehow didn't appeal to me. I think I'm sometimes scared away by the whole "clean cut-good boy" look. I think "can this guy be for real?" or is he going to change once he thinks that he has me. I don't know. I like chivalry. I like gentlemen. I like to have doors opened for me. I like to be respected.

Monday, January 07, 2008

Mon, 07 Jan 2008 06:34:46 GMT

Hello. So, I've had some really odd dreams lately. What's even more odd is that I'm dreaming at all. I usually don't remember my dreams. A few nights ago, I had a dream that I was making a mosaic out of chip crumbs (that's right...chip crumbs). I had a bunch of smashed greasy potato chips and I was trying to make a design out of them. I wasn't very sucessful though. It was very frustrating. Then I tried to pack the chip crumbs into balls. They didn't pack very well at all. :(. I woke up with a headache. Hopefully, I won't try to organize chip crumbs any time soon.

Saturday, January 05, 2008

Sat, 05 Jan 2008 07:57:27 GMT

Hi again!!! I've decided that I need more time to myself. I usually like to be around people. I usually hate being by myself, but, lately I've found that being by myself can actually be kind of relaxing. I'm really enjoying my winter break because I can do things because I want to do them and not because any one has told me that I have to. I'm making a scarf. Crocheting is really relaxing. Today, I read part of a book just because I wanted to. I want to have a fasination with my classes and the eagerness to learn. I want my learning to be more about than just getting perfect grades or impressing people.

Friday, January 04, 2008

Fri, 04 Jan 2008 04:51:32 GMT

Oh my goodness! I'm back into journaling again. Who knew. God, I guess. He knows everything. Sometimes, I wish that He would fill me in on what's going on. I know that He loves me and cares for me, but sometimes I find myself asking for results/some kind of proof even though I know That God is here for me and that He knows what is best. I don't know if that makes any sense at all.

Thursday, January 03, 2008

Thu, 03 Jan 2008 08:21:20 GMT

Hi again!! It's been about a year since I've done any blogging...ok, so, I'm not very good at keeping up with my journaling...ah, such is life. I thought it was funny that one of my blogs said "maybe I'll write again in 2008" and it's 2008 and I'm writing again. Wow!! So, a lot has happened since the last time that I wrote. It's hard to share them all in 1 blog. I guess I could say that I'm going through a time where I'm learning to trust God. I constantly find myself in a place where I'm questioning God..questioning why I haven't gotten the results that I want. Sometimes, it seems like God isn't listening to me, but I know that He is. I guess I have to choose to trust Him even though I can't always see a reason and I'm blinded by the current circumstances in my life. So, Tryna reminded me of blogging today. Thanks, Tryna. It's actually really relaxing to write. I've been reading the book of Ezekiel. There is a lot of talk about dreams. I don't dream a lot. If I do dream, I remember it for a long time. I've had some really weird dreams..not bad...just weird. Dreams are very interesting. I hope that I can continue writing.

God Bless. I hope you all have a fabulous day!!!

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

Wed, 10 Jan 2007 03:55:27 GMT

I mentioned earlier this week that I will be talking at a ladies breakfast for my church. So I presented my talk to my neighbor, Rita. She isn't a Christian, but she liked my talk. I'm talking about inner beauty and the ways that we gain victory through the beauty that God has given us. I like talking in front of people, but like after 5 minutes I've had enough. So I don't think you'll see me preaching a sermon anytime soon. Then again God might have other plans. It seems He always does.

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

Tue, 09 Jan 2007 00:34:29 GMT

Hello oh wonderful blogging world. I thought I'd better get used to blogging. I gave some people my xanga address and they're like "susie, you never write in your xanga" oh come on. Once every 10 years does not qualify as never. Don't you agree??? anyways, I had a sleep over with my friend, Janet. we were watching a video of Mark Lowry. He was saying that he knows exactly why Jesus is delaying coming to get his bride. It's because He's picturing Mark in his wedding dress. That would make anyone delay a marraige. I got film developed today. one of those disposable cameras. I bought my little brother one of those for his stocking. He took the pictures and I just got them back today. Tons of pictures of his dirty laundry. Well, at least I know what to get him for next year's present. Laundry detergent!!! yeah

Thursday, January 04, 2007

Thu, 04 Jan 2007 03:11:35 GMT

So it's already 2007. No, I do not have any new years resolutions. I've made resolutions before don't get me wrong, but they lasted like 2 days maybe less. So I'll be talking at a ladies breakfast for my church. I love talking in front of people, sharing God's heart, sharing my experiences.